Have you ever been put in situations that made you feel awful? Like having to put down a dog or choose a side. We all have to make painful decisions in life.

We sometimes have to do things we don’t necessarily agree with. These things can go against our morals, values, and even our beliefs. These decisions can weigh heavy on one’s soul.

Having to bare witness to wrongdoing and having to condone bad behavior for the sake of loyalty doesn’t feel good. When someone starts a fight and you are forced to take their side even if they are in the wrong. You have to honor your company no matter what. They are your friend, family, comrade, you respectfully have to stand by there side.

This can lead to guilt and hurt feelings. You will feel bad if you have to hurt someone who wasn’t even in the wrong. Because of the company you keep you have to defend the valor of your troop. Not everyone has your same standards nevertheless you have to follow along.

The Three Musketeers had a world-renowned saying, “One for all and all for one.” This saying literally means one will fight for everyone in their company and everyone in the company will fight for just one of the members of their company. I will fight for my friends and my friends will fight for me.

I have a heavy heart for some of the decisions that were made and that I had to cosign. People that I had to hurt simply because of gang warfare. I fought people and hurt people just because the gang said so. When the gang is going to war, whether they are right or wrong you have to fight.

Hurt people, hurt people and it hurts people to hurt people. Having to harm someone for the sake of what’s right and what is wrong will have a lasting effect on a person’s psyche. Beating someone up is a thing that you can’t easily forget.

For a lot of people therapy can help ease the stress of difficult decisions. If you have to do something to be down, fine, but you don’t have to bare the burden forever. Someday you make a decision for yourself and talk it out.

Lay down your burdens and let it out. The horrible things you have done doesn’t have to be a secret. Finding that special someone that you open up to and release the hurt you feel inside. One day you can purge the hurt from the deeds you have to engage in.

Talking, writing, drawing, and singing, are all therapeutic ways to cope with the pain of evil deeds. Finding ways to lighten the load of woes that you keep inside of your heart. Letting go of the pain you feel inside can be refreshing and uplifting. What you have to do doesn’t define you.

What you have done in the past doesn’t matter as much, what you decide to do in the future counts a whole lot more. It takes hard work but you can lighten up and stop feeling so bad about the things you have done. After a while, you and whoever you’ve hurt can and will heal. Just have faith.